Before I was a Mom

Before I was a Mom,

I never tripped over toys

Or forgot words to a lullaby.

I didn't worry whether or not

My plants were poisonous.

I never thought about immunizations.

Before I was a Mom,

I had never been puked on.

Pooped on.

Chewed on.

Peed on.

I had complete control of my mind

And my thoughts.

I slept all night.

Before I was a Mom,

I never held down a screaming child

So doctors could do tests.

Or give shots.

I never looked into teary eyes and cried.

I never got gloriously happy over a simple grin.

I never sat up late hours at night

Watching a baby sleep.

Before I was a Mom,

I never held a sleeping baby

Just because I didn't want to put her down.

I never felt my heart break into a million pieces

When I couldn't stop the hurt.

I never knew that something so small

Could affect my life so much.

I never knew that I could love someone so much.

Before I was a Mom,

I didn't know the feeling of

Having my heart outside my body.

I didn't know how special it could feel

To feed a hungry baby.

I didn't know that bond

Between a mother and her child.

I didn't know that something so small

Could make me feel so important and happy.

Before I was a Mom,

I had never gotten up in the middle of the night

Every 10 minutes to make sure all was okay.

I had never known the warmth,

The joy,

The love,

The heartache,

The wonderment

Or the satisfaction of being a Mom.

I didn't know I was capable of feeling so much,

Before I was a Mom...